Blubbered...

For starters, I HAVE A TAGBOARD! Now go spam it, you spammers!

Okay so...

Don't know why but today, I was reminded of the time I use to have a crush on someone a long way back. Seeing couples everywhere around me makes me feel more alone than ever, not that I have something against them. It's just that it pains me to see people out there be happy with their significant other and yet I'm here still, watching them like a voyeur.

Ahaha... I know I'm being a sentimental maudlin old fool but I can't help it. For those who are going like "NO, NO BOYFRIENDS! NEVER GET ONE AT ALL!" Please do know or remember, I've never been with anyone at all and I have the right to be emo about this. Lawl.

What I really wish to have... to have someone by me when I'm down. To be able to hug that someone and just be childish about it. To be able to shower my love and care to. To argue with him over small things (Yes I want this... so?) and make up after that. To be able to tease each other and make fun of each other. To spoil and fuss about when he is down or sick.

Though all of this may never be true... I have the right to wish, right? Hope is something I never had for quite a long time since I lost Hope in anything good that will ever happen to me... but for once... Just once... If only Hope is listening to me amongst all the few hundred millions of people... I wish to be happy... for once. Just be happy with who I'll be with, be happy with my family... be happy being what I am... Because knowing too much is never a good thing and for me... I know too much. And one day, it will bring me down.